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Wish me good luck

November 21, 2006 4 comments
Just now send an application to Zeitgeist Media Literary Agency for the parttime job it offered, all because of the name:Candice Bushnell, who is, the writer of SEX AND THE CITY.
 
I do like SATC, for it helps me to outline a vivid life of single women in NEW YORK. I just saw the 5th episode of season 2 this afternoon, the third time, can not help laughing when Carry and Mr Big are back together. When I finished it, opened FUDAN BBS, there was right an advertisement placed by ZM and at that moment I really think I should at least have a try. The job they offered is exactly what I am searching for.
 
Wish me good luck^_^
 
刚刚快写完的时候接到一个高中同学电话,思维全部被打乱了,心情也被打乱了。
他跟我说我高中的时候如何如何,跟我说他当时认为我应该会是怎么样。
他说的时候我觉得我整个人都在颤抖。
 
就好像那天跟HungYen在MSN上开玩笑。
他说,I wish I were 18, still in university, date young girls;
我于是说,I wish I were 18, enter top university, and date smart boys.
说完后我们在MSN的两头哈哈大笑,然后我笑的眼泪都快要流出来。
 
中午回到宿舍就一直窝着没有出来。
左边的肾一直疼,很害怕,不停地上厕所。
晚上静文的GG过来,然后叫上我和冬冬一起吃饭,一直说笑,心情才稍微好点。
吃完后我把本本拿到实验室来,想要做点事情,结果接到这样一个电话。
 
我知道他是好意,他只是想称赞我,可是,他越是说我以前的优秀,就越是让我难过。
他说的时候我甚至会怀疑我曾经是不是真的有那么厉害。
 
可是不管怎么样,那一切,都被我自己给毁了。
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Categories: Randoms

Rainy night

November 17, 2006 2 comments
It is raining outside. I just wrote a letter to Jerome but it seems that there is something wrong with the mail system, and now my outlook is still sending it, with already 15 minutes passed…
 
Last time when I saw mouse’s blog again, I just decided to give up the thought of writing my blog in English, but sometimes it is better and safer to express my feelings not in Chinese.  This week is a shocking one compared to peaceful ones before, since I was really shocked by something happened just in front of me. I feel that I witness the whole occurrence and I can do nothing about it, although I really do not want to see the way it goes.
 
I talked with my roommate sunglow a lot these days, sharing our opinions on love, life and all the stuff around us. I am willing to tell her many of my past and many of my thoughts, for she is someone I would like to trust. So today when I told her I decided to give up my affection of XXX, she was not surprised at all and can totally understood me.
 
And there is a beautiful coincidence on MSN this week. A girl added me one day, mistaking me with one of her classmates, for we had the same name: Siwen Liu. She talked to me in English, which is so good and impressed me so much, and after a few words, I felt that she is someone I like to chat with, so I said I wanna keep in touch with her, although we do not know each other before. This afternoon, she told me that she likes my blog, and at that time I was very happy, can not help laughing in lab. I can not tell the feeling, but sometimes u just needed to be praised or appreciated.
 
It is still raining. I felt a little cold and very uncomfortable with my eyes. But dongdong still does not come back, while she promised me that she will return in about 22:00… I hate u, SONG DONG DONG!!!
Categories: Dailylife

Evariste Galois

November 15, 2006 Leave a comment
最近在研究伽罗华域的一些东西,然后在网上顺带看到了伽罗华的生平。
天才的浪漫的数学家,21岁就为了女人和别人决斗而死,下面这段话摘自他的遗书。
 
“我请求我的爱国同胞们,我的朋友们,不要指责我不是为我的国家而死。
 
  我是作为一个不名誉的风骚女人和她的两个受骗者的牺牲品而死的。
  我将在可耻的诽谤中结束我的生命。噢!为什么要为这么微不足道的,这么可鄙的事去死呢?
  我恳求苍天为我作证,只有武力和强迫才使我在我曾想方设法避开的挑衅中倒下。”
 
从小就崇拜数学和物理好的人,特别是数学;
而且反之亦反,就是说如果一个人其他方面再厉害,数学不好,基本上我是懒得去仰视的。
我看到困扰了我很长时间的伽罗华域的理论是他20岁不到的研究成果之后,就觉得天旋地转;
再看到他为了“爱情和荣誉”跑去跟别人决斗被打穿肠子然后重伤而死之后,就再次感到天旋地转。
想想刚刚重新看了一遍的张爱玲传,心里感叹可能天才的人生总归要与众不同一些才正常。
 
另:最近越来越多我care的人成为Phd candidate,搞不好我也要了,真是说不出的迷茫。
Categories: People

发秋…

November 13, 2006 Leave a comment
现在不是春天,所以不能说自己发春, 只能是发秋了…
整天都在想,不能专心做事情,睡也睡不好,只是想…
一边跟自己说不要再想了,不可能的;一边不争气地继续想…
 
为什么我总是陷入这种无谓的感情…
Categories: Poison

有时爱情徒有虚名

November 5, 2006 1 comment
今天上午在淮海路拍照的时候,身边走过一个女孩,嘴里哼唱着:
“爱来爱去没了反应,灯火惊动不了神经,有时爱情徒有虚名…”
当时突然就有很莫名的感觉,说不上来,可能最近看到太多的事情了。
 
开始有很多事情做。
还是喜欢忙的状态,隔了这么多年,发现还是忙着比较开心,虽然已经能比较开心地闲着。
以前总是每天都花很多时间在MSN上,现在是没空也没精力了。
所以减少了聊天的对象,写blog也没有那么勤快了;
但始终还是割舍不下,因此还是会跟想要说话的人聊天,还是会抽时间出来更新space。
有些事情,做的多了就成了一种习惯。
 
又收到mouse的信。
一来一回,已经两个月了。
生命是不是也会呼啦啦这样一下子就过去了?
Categories: Dailylife